Singapore girlfriends? Naked beachhouses falling down? Why is my life such a joke today?

S calls me. Then I cry and call C. She's not there, not answering.

C calls me at noon.

So you still have a girlfriend...and apparently you all are still going strong. Wow.

I think you meant what you said, I don't think you are this person...

Wow. I am so hurt and torn, your explanations may work on me...but then what?

How did he ever think this would be okay? I think of bad things I have done in my life---I've stolen. I once
told my stepmother I hated her. I've told a few lies. I stole some money once from my sister's wallet. I used to sneak out of my house in hs.....I've tried a few drugs..

Okay. But this? How did he even think this would be accomplished?

wow.

this is going to pass right? I won't remember how bad this hurt, right?

But what if I stay in love with you? I said what I meant, meant what I said,whatever, D- you will be the last man I kiss.

Where do I go from here?

a liar. Wow. I have never been this hurt. B left and I said oh well. and knew where I was, but this? ..this?

From the first time he kissed me I knew....but I never thought about him still belonging to someone else; I believed
him.
But if you were just lying to me....what did I do to deserve that?

Alright. Well, I'll be far away. You'll only know what you know from where you stand.

Maybe you meant it all, or maybe you didn't mean anything you said, but thats okay----- I'm still crazy over you, D.

and ow, this is painful..

but what if I'm going to be gone, you'll be in somewhere else, fall into someone else, and you will have settled for someone that wasn't me. Settled?.

But I knew the first time you kissed me. when you really are available.

My mom calls to say the beachhouse is severely damaged in a hurricane. She can't find my father. Then she tells me if I'd like to come home from SINGAPORE I can, but don't worry.

I'm not in Singapore.

This whole day has to be a joke, right? Nope...because then I bust a pen on my hand.